To be gay and happy too

A friend told me that after a long struggle, he finally decided to come clean and declared to the people around him that he is gay. ( Read: Homosexual )

Upon hearing his news, I brighten up and gave him a pat on his back and congratulated him.

"Don't you have anything else to say?" He asked.

I asked him if it was more important to be straight like the rest of us or if it was more important to realise his true nature of his sexuality.

"Know what you want, go for it, and be happy about it." I said.

And that's when we were done on that subject.

"The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want." - Ben Stein

General theory of relativity

"Tell me the truth."

"I'm afraid I can never do that."

"Why is that so?"

"Because the truth is not what I say, but what you choose to believe."

There are 2 things that I find very hard to accept.

To disappoint those who had faith, and to fail my own expectations.

In a wickedly evil grand slam, I managed to accomplish all 2 today.

Don't wanna find excuses, but I am screwed as far as the selection is concerned.

The only consolation is that I found a new friend. Sort of.

And the cheerleading competition was a joy to watch. It did wonders to lift my otherwise tragic day.

I admire the spirit of the hall dwellers, the tribal and "very united" atmosphere (Not all halls lah, but...).

It's a shame that hall 13 guy fell and dislocated his arm, they were by far the best team I've seen.

How he managed to pop his arm back in time not to get ushered away by the saftely minders will keep me curious for a long long time.

Cailing help me ask him then let me know leh!

"I am a kind of paranoiac in reverse. I suspect people of plotting to make me happy. " - J. D. Salinger (1919 - )

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Nothing to say today.

But I promised someone I have a very good quote!

"I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances."

Martha Washington - US wife of George Washington 1759 (1732 - 1802)

When both hands want to go their way

I guess this isn't the "rightest" thing to do, blogging in the staff computing lab, but...

Here I am, seated comfortably. Reading the case I downloaded yesterday evening.

After a whole semester on planning, training and plain waiting, it has finally come down to this.

The mock case competition is coming this Wednesday.

Even though I may not be selected eventually, I am still worried.

Worried that I may be selected, yes.

I am a little confused. Why would I worry, if I DO get selected eventually? Isn't that a good thing?

Preparing for the case competition has done a lot of good for me. Going for the competition proper will no doubt put me in a better position yet, no matter the outcome of the competition.

But I can't help it, I feel like a pretender all along. Even though everyone says I've outperformed the expectations placed onto a freshmen. Even though I continue to suprise fellow students and Professors in the club when I introduce myself as a year 1.

I can feel it, the limitations are there. I can try my best to read, to study, to observe and to absorb and create, but there is just no way for a year 1 to compete on fair grounds with the older, more senior students.

Not that I am intimidated. I just think that the school will have a better chance if they send the year 2s and 3s. I may be prepared, but that may not be good enough.

Maybe I am too hard on myself.

Maybe I won't be selected at all.

In the worst case senario (that I get selected), I'll just have to bite tight tight on the root of my teeth (direct chinese translation) and get on with things like I've always done.

On the honest side of the argument. I know I'll just love to go and have lots of fun.

Someone once told me I was sick, I couldn't agree more.

I love it when the pressure gets too much to take. Low pressure = No pleasure!

"Apples, peaches, and oranges-each, in its own way, is unique and valuable. The same is true of people-each individual, regardless of superficial differences, is equally precious. "

90 seconds of pain

Capturing a 1 hour 30 min tape. $15.

Rendering it. $10.

Uploading it. $5.

Having to suffer four 90 seconds sandwich in 2 days because the canteens are all closed. Priceless.

"Experience is the only teacher who gives the test first and the lesson later."